10/16/18 discussion about my own youth sexuality

Here is the link to my October 16, 2018, Twitter thread discussion of my childhood sexuality.

Over the years on Twitter, I'd been discussing a lot of my own thoughts about queer sexuality, youth sexuality, and the laws about the age of legally recognized consent to sex. My discussions about these issues increased following FOSTA-SESTA, my research on which taught me just how much the history of sex work laws and youth sex laws are interrelated -- and how much they have a paranoia of youth sexuality in common.

I then started finding just how often the fear of youth sex, youth sexuality, and the so-called sexualization of young people penetrates many aspects of American society, including the arts and literature.

My own memories of my own youth sexuality are way different from the commonly held notions about youth sexuality, which is why I wanted to write this thread.

In the thread I discuss my sexual arousal from wearing baby diapers when I was five years old. I discuss how I would wear, and masturbate in diapers on and off throughout my childhood. I discuss how I became a transvestite at the age of eleven -- doing things like trying on panties and bras in changing rooms, as well as stealing lingerie when I was too afraid to go through the checkout line to buy the clothing. And I discuss how I became an adult baby/ageplay fetishist for a while in my thirties.

I find it's really important to discuss all of this stuff. My sexuality didn't traumatize me. My Christian guilt over my sexuality did. Youth sex, youth sexuality, and so-called sexualization of youth are not problems. And you can't talk about youth queerness if you can't accept the fact that sex -- the dirty parts of sex -- are just as much a part of youth queerness as they are a part of adult queerness. Taking sex out of any queerness, including youth queerness, is just as much of an injustice as denying the rights of queer people to equal treatment in housing, employment, and public accommodation, in my opinion.

Twitter's platform has twisted each of my threads through 2018 and 2019 out of chronological order. This thread is affected, but is still moderately coherent. My apologies.

Thank you for reading. Please enjoy.